#307

to the lecturer who asked how much i got last sem. and think that they gave me too high marks and should have failed me.
fuck u.
what’s the point of comparing me with other nafa students? just because we are all from nafa? i should be like them.
im a slacker, so what. at least i turn up for my own critique session. why dont u compare me w the lasalle ppl? how many have not turn up? im already better than them. what have i been doing for the past 6 weeks. so what have YOU been doing for the past 6 weeks? organizing a study trip to vietnam. leaving date is in less than 2 weeks yet nothing is being planned out. u lecturers urself have not been doing productive things. what rights have u to criticize me?
i will admit, that im not doing anything and have been doing my stuffs in an anyhow attitude. but you? just because u’re a lecturer u think u are good? how many lasalle lecturers have basic skills? and why are u lecturers doing works which are exact copies of ur artist references? how much u guys keep saying concept is v important. but yet u yourself, as a lecturer, are all just copying stuffs.

so even the lecturers are like that.
what about the students. worse than them of course.
the lecturers are not even good examples. so how much can u expect from the students.
they are plain arrogant. they think they are cool, smart, unique. but in actual fact, they have no knowledge, and they have no skills. they just crap all the way about their works.
and i dont understand why the students have so many comments and feedbacks on other ppl’s works?
to the fucking black guy who asked me “do u like what u’re doing?”
and i have to say the look u gave me, i really felt like punching ur face. cause ur works look like a pile of shit made out of cement. stating it’s abstract figurative. it’s just bullshit. what do u mean by do i like what im doing.
well, i actually love to draw figurative works. but i fucking hate your “cool” school and ppl like u and the lecturers, therefore i am unwilling to put in any efforts to do any of my works. faggot.
and to the guy who ask, sarcastically as well of course, that’s all they know how to do. “so, what are u actually doing?”
well, to say the truth. i have no idea. wait wait. your concept is about god and jesus?? i have no idea what YOU are doing as well. and please. u’re doing plaster castings of finger tips and saying stuffs like god etc.. and ur drawing skills sucks. cause the proportions of everything is just wrong.
how i would describe myself: good skills, crap concept, lazy
lasalle students & lecturers: shallow, no skills, crap concept, lazy = worse than me
of course im not saying all the ppl in lasalle are like that. but 99% are.
either u have better skills than me, or u have good concepts. then i will accept your criticism.

to think the fucking lecturer’s comment affected me for 1 whole day.
but now that i have consider everything properly. i feel so much better.

and btw. u compared me w shitong and rina.
i have nothing to say cause i admit. both of them are hardworking and have great skills.
of course, i feel inferior to rina cause she’s my close friend.
but, we are different and we think differently.
she thinks grades is everything. cause she wants scholarship.
but i dont care. i just want to have your fucking certificate, for the sake of having the paper seriously.
even if u really choose to fail me at the end of this sem, i still can get jobs that pays me well.

so fuck u.
look into the mirror before u want to say something.
hmm, but seeing how brainless all of u are. i guess u guys will still think that “I AM THE COOLEST AND THE BEST~”
bullshit.

#306

the moment when i feel so de-motivated.
down, demoralized.
lousy.

totally in no mood to do anything even though it’s just 1 month away to my piano theory exam.
and here i am still failing my practice papers.

skipping tutorials, lectures, drawing classes. just to sleep my day away at home.
& tml is my critique session.
i use to love art so much.
school has distinguish my passion towards art.

and i know only i can help myself, nobody else
im just being an asshole.
wish i had the determination to pick myself up.

#305

有钱 单身 年轻帅气 不是神经病
这样就十全十美吗?

我比较喜欢 体贴 细心
用心去了解我的男人 ♥